Oh man. It started with a rotten night of sleep (four total hours, broken up by waking up for no reason), an extra early morning, and then a long day at work (twelve hours, plus at least another two hours of work to get done at home). Of course, I forgot my packed lunch. I had planned to go to a yoga class this evening, but by the time I got home, I was so profoundly tired that I decided to go tomorrow instead. It’s been a while since I’ve done regular exercise, and I’ve forgotten how worn out you get at first.
What I’m Eating
Breakfast was a piece of toast with almond butter and jam and a cup of coffee, which I ate at 6:30 am. Not nearly substantial enough to get me to lunch (which was unfortunately at 2 pm today!). By 10, I was starving, so I raided my snack drawer at work and wolfed down a few handfuls of yogurt pretzels, which, it turns out, totaled in something like 550 calories. Which is a lot. My whole lunch yesterday wasn’t that much. Lunch was a tomato, turkey and cheese sandwich on ciabatta with way too much turkey and cheese and something called “Cowgirl Bark.” Dinner was cold salmon, peas, salad, and a little dill sauce, much more reasonable but still a little extravagant. Today’s calories: 2,400.
What I’m Thinking/How I’m Feeling
Besides exhausted, I’m feeling frustrated with today. Yes, it was busy, but the eating came down to not planning well. I could have had a more substantial breakfast; I could keep my snack drawer filled with more reasonable foods (for instance, NOT YOGURT PRETZELS); I could have made a smaller sandwich and eaten more veggies and fruits. It’s not that hard to do.
Also, I need to figure out this sleeping thing. I haven’t consistently slept well since last December. First it was because of the loud neighbor downstairs, then because of the exceptional anxiety I experienced this spring and summer, and now, it’s either still the anxiety or a side effect of the anti-anxiety medication I’m on. (Oh yeah, I’m on an anti-anxiety medication.) I’m trying to drink less coffee (only one cup today!) and less wine/alcohol, and I think it’ll be super important to not be in front of a screen after 9 pm, which… unfortunately means that I won’t be able to finish today’s work. But sleep is more important.
Today all came down to sleep. Had I slept in until a normal (for me) time with a normal amount of hours, I would have waken up refreshed and ready for a good breakfast. Doing that might have mitigated the crazy yogurt pretzel fiasco.
Planning for the Future
New snack foods: almonds, citrus fruits, yogurt, baby carrots, hummus. Anything else I might be missing? If you have any suggestions, I’ll take’em.
Sleep: Be in bed by 10 pm, no screens after 9 pm, no coffee after mid-day. More exercise on the regular so that it doesn’t wear me out like yesterday’s run.
And that is that, my friends.