I’m back at work this week, even if my students aren’t (it’s a travel week for kids to visit colleges). Essentially, I spend all day alone in my classroom “grading.” If I was smart, I’d cut myself off from all distractions and just power through this stack of papers, but instead I’m drinking coffee, checking blogs, and watching (this is embarrassing) episode after episode of “Teen Mom.”
I hadn’t thought about a chile verde burrito once over the past two weeks, but now that I’m back in school and the Mexican place around the corner is beckoning me again, chile verde has been on my mind. In case you don’t know all my food obsessions, a chile verde burrito is just about the greatest thing in the world: beans, rice, carrots, cheese, onions, and pork simmered in green salsa, wrapped up in a flour tortilla, and then smothered with more green salsa. It’s heavy and deeply, deeply unhealthy, and for the last month or so of being at school before spring break, I couldn’t seem to stop myself from chowing down on those three or four times a week.
And I’m getting tempted again!
To combat the temptation, I bought some delicious fixins for healthy lunches that I can keep in the faculty refrigerator. Today’s lunch was a turkey, lettuce, and tomato sandwich on a decent whole grain bread with Dijon mayonnaise, a cup of apple slices, and some Greek yogurt. All fresh and tasty, a lot of raw food, and enough to quell the temptation for now.
I know that I have even one burrito, I set myself up to have it every day. I just have to avoid it as much as possible.
Other than that, things are going OK, and I’m happy to be settling into my groove at home.
I’ve been thinking about the fact that I can’t seem to go more than three weeks without cascading off the tracking wagon. It’s not so much the fact that I overeat or even binge at times — I mean, no one’s perfect — it’s more the fact that I use that as an excuse not to track. And not tracking pretty much ensures more overeating and bingeing. Over the last several months, I’ve noticed that once I stop tracking, it takes a couple of weeks at least to get back on track. Three weeks on, two weeks off, something like that, pretty much ensures that my weight goes in circles instead of down.
So of the ten billion things I want to accomplish this next year, the first is this: I want to go a whole five weeks (a whole “cycle”) staying on track. Even if I overeat, even if I binge, I’ll be succeeding if I track every little thing I eat and use that information to make better choices.
I started the cycle on April 6, so I want to make it to May 11. Do you think I can do it? 35 days of tracking?
I’m on day 4.
And I think I can do it.